Dreams- Need help understanding whats going on.?

Please don't comment unless you have useful information about this subject. Everyone dreams, and people have a lot of different ones But mine are not your usual dreams. Ever since I was little I've noticed something weird happening when i would dream. I can control my dream, not the scenario or the plot or anything, but just like i can type right now because I want too, so too in the dream i could. Just like if it were real life I could maneuver, and do what i wanted to, go where i wanted to go. Not only that i could think logically, determine right from wrong, and so forth. I can not only see, and hear in my dreams but taste, smell, and even feel. I could feel everything, even pain. When these type of dreams occur it happens mostly the same way every time. I start off just like anyone else, your dream self goes and does what it wants with you having no control of it but then(and this is hard to explain), I sort of see myself in third person only for a brief moment before i go inside my body. I see a sort of clear and transparent barrier right before I enter inside my body, once I enter though I can realize it and know I'm their, I'll test it out by trying to control my movement and thoughts. After that I know I'm dreaming but I feel as if I'm awake. As the dream progresses I begin to forget what's real and what's not, so over the years I have came up with a way when for when I dream and some what tell. And it's a simple solution, I just use what I know from the awake self and say how or why it doesn't correlate to what is happening right now. But this isn't what scares me, it's the pain I feel. It feel just as real as if i were to happen in the real world or my awake self. So i have been trying to suppress my dreaming. Now for those of you who don't know you dream every night but you don't remember every dream, some nights you don't remember any. So that's what I mean by suppressing my dreams, I'm just making it to where I don't remember them cause they were not a big enough dream, by doing that I don't have time to be inside my dream. However lately, when I do dream it's getting harder and harder to wake up. Nothing that you would normally do to wake yourself up works. In order for me to wake up, I have to find specific spots in my dream so i can wake up. But the spots are random and I never know where to go, and when I have nightmare it is worst. Someone shaking me and my alarm clock going doesn't always wake me anymore, and I'm getting enough sleep, it only happens when i dream and I'm able to control it. I just need some help. Please if you know nothing about dreams or the human brain don't comment with your opinions, I need websites and facts. Things that can actually help. I'm already looking for researchers who can help me so if you know anyone with knowledge on this who can do testing please let me know.